IM of CNY
By Angelica Martin, MS, RPA-C
Recently, I entered the Akashic Records asking for guidance with my relationship to food. I received powerful insights on how to reverse my unhealthy relationship with eating, however, my AH-HA moment came to me later that afternoon ...
Just like many of us after the holidays, I made a commitment to myself that I would hop back on the wagon as it pertained to my nutrition. I had done really well on a week of a mucus free diet back in May and I remembered how great I felt during that week, so I decided to give it a go once again.
I just don't remember that week in May being as tempting and grueling as my struggle with food had been the second time around.
Whenever I was still, I found myself completing an inventory in my mind of all the foods, snacks, and sweets available that not only sounded appealing, but followed my mucus free plan.
ALL of the time those foods were not on my approved mucus free list. So, I spent even more time THINKING about them.
I gave in with rice only. That was my one vice I allowed myself. Okay, and dairy free ice cream without any added grains.
I wish I could say it got easier but truly, it didn't...
Before my husband laid down for his nap, I told him, "I'm hungry but I don't know what to eat." As he fell asleep, I found myself reading through spiritual articles on Facebook in which I felt a guiding pull.
I became lost.
I kept reading and reading. Excited, in awe, vibrating higher with each word.
In flow, I lost track of time.
And, suddenly, in one moment I realized: I was no longer hungry.
The hunger I had been feeling was not for physical nourishment, but for spiritual sustenance: a yearning for a deeper desire for energetic mastery that no dairy free ice cream could match up against.
This has been my pattern.
My whole life I had been confusing the two; feeling the unease of "hunger" set in, I would reach for the easiest food, whether it be an apple, a bag of chips, or a cup of juice, anything to rid myself of the mild discomfort.
What I was really sensing was my soul's hunger.
A thirst for my knowledge, wisdom, and understanding.
Of course, I will continue to eat food, but understanding this tid-bit about myself will give me pause whenever I begin counter-cruising.
Is your body hungry, or is your soul?
I see you. I feel you. I am here for you.